changed link;
-xlene.blogspot.com

sad day lahs,
everyone is feeling so sad! can`t stand it,
it is just 1 day after valentines day nia.
okays, enough of my craps.
went to SDC! damn boring lahs, watch one
'movie'. quite scary, cause of the sound effect!
after watching, went to another room and play
games. OK-OK loh, the game quite FUN .
went back to school after that, something really
damn damn damn damn bad happened on the way.
kinda sickening de! xD thats all , tata~

whoa! it has been sucha long tyme since i blogged.
2 WEEKS LEH! broke my record liaos.

nothing much happened bahs, so don`t wanna blog much.

CNY 2

back from my ah ma house !

many people were there, so crowded. of cause la, my ah ma burfdae + CNY visiting leh! my cousins came =D saw didi, i was totally SHOCKED! from a so nerd boy become those kind of ah beng looking =x . shuai-er alot?! luckily he is older than me lahs =x . yeps ate alot there too! they keep feeding me with good food =D especially those pineapple tarts and stuff la, eat until stomach ache o.O ? after that i went back home le.

chinese new year =D

=D Happy Chinese New Year !

today is the first day of CNY and my father made me feel so pissed off! woke up at 7a.m just to go toilet and he ask me go prepare in those very irritated tune?! which idiot goes visiting at 7AM!!? maybe some of you la, but i totally know my relatives too well! none of them wakes up so early and goes visiting. damn that old man =x , heh heh okays. stop posting here le! going out to visit liao =D

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back from visiting!

went to my ah ma house =D, saw terence! he became much more bigger then before? he was so handsome last time. now that he became bigger, his face shape changed =.=" and i didn`t even bother saying HI to him =x . after that went home le, didnt go much places cause very lazy lah! =D came home to play mahjong, win around $20+ =D lucky me.

everything is fine now =D

=D

sucks la

o.O something is not right with me, felt so tired today and started to flare up! cause of him ba? don`t know what is wrong! i very sad now la, i really want to die le . i hate him, i hate him, why must he appear in my life ='( & do this to me! yeps, was sleeping in science lessons and that teacher saw it. i just wanna sleep my day through without knowing whats happening around me? bleah.

claire totally changed! whats happening to her? because of that guy, her life totally was ruin liao . bloody asshole jerk!

hey babe, you are totally scaring me now! even pearl doesn`t dare to go near with you, not only her! including me and ahgerl too. if there is anything wrong, tell me lahs! dont keep everything to yourself, thats not good for health de! o.o if because of stevie then i beg u to just forget him can?! not worthy your love lahs. isn`t 'ad peh' better for you? wait for you so long le and still so devoted as ever. must cherish this kind of guy. such guys going to extinct liao ;)

d&t sucks to the core!

damn, d&t sucks. the teacher is so fierce & violent, poor lingyuan! didn`t print out the cover page and got scolded so terribly =x , but it was okay la cause the teacher keep going into his room and smoke =x and we can start to chit-chat =D

er, after school. went to TM with shuhui, desperately looking for ayashi no ceres! if anyone of you have that anime. please let me know yeah? ='( damn sad, i walked the whole TM and CS, and still not a sight of it at all! i really must go order from some JB guy liao la .. damn those shops that doesn`t sell the anime! slap their ass ~

wtf?

chicken mcnugget !
i was watching ayashi no ceres halfway and i found out that they actually forgotten to upload episode 14-20? what the fucking hell .. have to skip all the way to episode 21 ! i dont even know what the hell they are talking now! i got so fed-up, i went to all the forums that i know and asked if people are selling the cds, only 1 person reply me. hope that he can sell me real cheap lahs.

i got so desperate about that show until i even emailed the person who was supposed to upload the video to upload it quickly?! and the answer i got was .. 'ill try', damn you! dont say that , u should say 'oh yeahs, im uploading it asap'!

got so damn fucking sad when touya is dead! can u imagine how many tissue papers did i used just to wipe my tears? totally hate lahs. and aya was having his child ?! how can they make him die! but oh well .. he wasn`t actually alive anyway =x aya was supposed to be dead too but touya gave her the 'mana' and let her lived on, i think it would be better if aya died too cause its too hurting to live alone when your loved one had died! ='(

and err , i suggest young kids at the age of 10 and below should not watch it , it has alot of bloody violence and some *AHEMS*, well you know .. most animes are like that , cant help it =/

dn angel.

daisuke nearly kissed risa! he so shy.


red hair - daisuke, purple hair - dark.

both are same person! cause daisuke is able to change into dark =D totally rocks. many handsome and cool guys in that anime, its a must watch la! but too bad risa won`t end up daisuke and thats what upsets me the most lehs! i want them together but oh well , riku isnt that bad too la! dark is the coolest of them all ! sad part is risa likes dark but ... daisuke is dark and daisuke only likes riku! damn it !



tooya and aya =D

another one of my favourite anime! but the picture is the manga version =D, its Ayashi No Ceres , a old anime. but the guy so handsome and the girl is so beautiful =D nice couple!



a picture of tooya! in the anime version

happy burfdae!

HAPPY BELATED BURFDAY , SYLVESTER SIM!

stayed back with natasha this afternoon cause she have military band, so idiotic lahs that adrain , sec 1 kiddy . keep banging the table until we cannot eat finish our food =x . basket sia , then talked about which school the rest of their 'friends' went to la, after that natasha sent me to the bus-stop . saw that boy too , so unhappy when i saw him. makes me remember what happened between us , he is just a liar and i won`t bother about him anymore. i swear!

about evening , he smed me.
whatever you say la boy . take a chill pill, i am so not interested in the things that you do or say cause its none of my business, even if you die , i also won`t be a percent interested lahs , just hope that you would stop smsing me and tell me some boliao stuffs , i don`t wanna waste my message on replying sucha lame msges.

at about night-tyme, have conference with the same old people again. this tyme i talk till i doze off ! simply too tired la , thats all ! tata .

forget about him and start anew!

ruayngoen smsed me ! totally surprised can? , but also damn upset la . she mentioned about his name again, i wanna get his name off my mind! forget about him and start anew. many people told me that but i just can`t la . whatever that happened between me and him are already the past and i must try to move on with my life . no point thinking of the past when i am trying so hard to forget about it right =D

retarded born !

OMFG! I LOOK LIKE A RETARD NOW. basket sia , that hair dresser dont even know how to cut properly la! pissed off now. a few hours it was still looking so damn fine! now it look like a total piece of shyt, damn that hair salon! i am never going back again.

anyone know how to make the
hair grow faster?!

suckiest day ever.

TODAY JUST SUCKS TO THE CORE..

that irritating form teacher just changed our seating arrangements, and i sat beside alex! totally freaky can but i am so lucky that we dont have to join our tables, if not i will faint right on the spot! and my ex moniter is so bossy! he had nothing better to do then to complain so much, he told teachers that we left books underneath our tables and made us carry 1 big bag filled with freaking thick books la, shoulder damn pain now! after school, went home to watch initial d! edison so handsome <333

cute anime !

[ him , when he was in original form ]


[ he was exiled by odin- turned into a kid ]

HE DID GAVE UP GOING BACK
TO THE WORLD OF GODS CAUSE
OF HER AFTER ALL ! =D

LOKI AND MAYURA ROCKS ,
LIE HUO AND GONG ZHU ROCKS ,
getting to hooked on that both anime?
i don`t understand myself ..
once i watch that anime , i will
get terribly hooked on it !

the characters are just too kawaii lahs, falling in love with them , both the girl character and the boy *winks*

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yesterday was JW burfdae =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
went to her house and celebrate her birthday! ordered pizza hut and bought cake for her =D and watched anime, that was how i got to know those animes. after that went back home and rent those shows to watch! have been chionging it for quite awhile, damn nice to watch.
ANIME ROCKS !

school re-opened!

*BOOO - school re-opened! our dm has changed into a santa =/ totally sucky lahs, all kind of lame rules? no books under our table too ! and our form teacher, sucks! so extra , i prefer ms winnie tan! i want her back in EVSS now now now! although sometimes she is just too bias but well , she is the best after all =D

happy new year !

Happy New Year , everybody =D,
may your wishes come true

Yesterday was the last day of 2005,how sad! Im gonna be another year older=/ old .. old .. =) hahas and sec1 life is gone =.=" no more playing around in school! TIME TO STUDY HARD =D

heard from erjie that dajie is coming back to bring us out for dinner! ^^ , don`t know where will she be bringing us too , =D hope somewhere good.

losers life

pek'd with juan yeo !
how can he be sucha 'SOTONG'?
=D , carn`t stand him anymore liao.

created a new maple account! not gonna add alot of people back especially him, i am still suspecting him for logging in my account and scold people noob! how pathetic can he get?! although he has denied it lots of tyme, but it will never change my opinion that he was the one that logged in my account.

arghs! damn computer

damn it ! my computer is down with virus, knnccb~ i haven`t save all my stuffs into my disc yet, and it had to break down at this tyme. pathetic la, my frog prince videos, mtvs, pictures are all gone! took me lots of efforts to find them leh, now in just 1second. they are all gone! damn this computer, so lousy =/

xD , merry christmas everyone!

xmas wish ;
hope everyone will stay happy!
WORLD PEACE =x .
everything would be alright between us ;)
- end of wish ! -

just a short wish lah,
dont wanna be so greedy!
later santa dont wanna grant my wishes ~ =Pp

christmas was so boring this yr.
pearline, nana, cheryl and phillips
carnt even go out at all! saddening
but its alright ;) , hahas.

at least i get to talk on the phone
last night with kenneth and friends.
we were counting down for xmas,
but ... we sound as if didn't even count
down at all siahs. =/ , lols!

hmm ... come to think of it ..
SCHOOL IS RE-OPENING!
aww man, i dont wanna go back.
cause everyday would be,
study study and study!
and no more mapling time,
BOOHOOHOO! ;(
and i haven't even touched
my holiday assignments! ;o,
gosh. im getting lazier and lazier,
omfg, but oh well , at least can
get to see my friends again! xD,
wonder if anyone of them changed anot =/ !

LALALAS ~
PEARLINE DARLING ~
WO AI NI ! =x

KINGKONG!

;o ,
went to watch kingkong with Wen & Juan , the KINGKONG quite funny larhs ! The scary part was about those natives and kingkong tearing apart a dinosaurs' jaw bahs. Those natives are like so damn scary, living in a island called, Skull Island, if i'm not wrong! LOLS, dinosaur part, nothing to say larhs. as usual , they go out hunt for food lorhs. After that is all funny and quite touching part, laughed alot of times and its like the whole cinema is filled with childrens laughters! SO NOISY and there was this bloody uncle, damn irritating ! kept on shaking his legs even though i gave him lotsa signals , telling him that i am PISSED off! ... Idiots, lol ! then when
king kong died, i really cried! =( saddening.

After the movie, headed to JW house. played with her brother! , HE IS SO GOD DAMMIT CUTE! I FEEL LIKE KIDNAPPING HIM AND TAKE HOME!
;o ;o ;o ;o ;o ;o !
and first time i got to carry a babie! had a phobia of carrying a baby last time
cause im afraid that i would drop the baby, but after this first try... it wasn't
really so bad after all =/ ..

the defination of bytch.

saw Jingwen's blog, wonder whart happened to PeiJuan, hope everything is fine with her.
=)) cheer up gerl , be happy! if anything is wrong , u can always count on Wen,Laine or me ..

ermms... dont know whart the fuck is that girls' problem, she said that she HATES backstabbers but she backstab people from head to toe, still dare to call people a bitch? i dont even care if u called me a bitch, slut cause i bloody hell don`t give a DAMN about it, cause the only person that calls people bitch or slut is the real bitch or slut themselves, so suit yourself in calling me that..

meaning of SLUT-
A woman considered sexually promiscuous.
A woman prostitute.

for your information, i am not a prostitute neither am i considered sexually promiscuous .

meaning of BITCH -
A lewd woman.

[Preoccupied with sex and sexual desire]

sorry to say , but im not preoccupied with sex and sexual desire.

back from msia trip!

i am back from msia trip!
so many hot guys over there, i was drooling when i saw them! especially the one working at radioactive ! total hotness ~

the day before we set off, i was talkin on the phone with kenneth and daryl ! that idiotic kenneth died for me at maple =/ and it was at lupins! totally embarassing can?! level 40 plus die there =x i have nothing more to say!

day 1 * set off at 7am , was caught in traffic jam for 2hours! totally horrible! there were simply too much buses around! reached kuala lumpur at around 4pm, went to the hotel that we were suppose to stay at, TOTAL GORGEOUS! after putting down our laugages, we carried on with our shopping. Sungei Wang, a so damn fucking big shopping mall, i walked till 8pm and i still haven`t finish walking! and saw that radioactive guy! that so cute& handsome boy, smiled and chat with him awhile! he is sucha cutie pie =x , after that i went back to the hotel! my stupid sis insisted on playing 'zhong ji mi ma', i got quit drunk cause if anyone guess the number correctly, we have to drink beer! so obviously i kept gotting the correct number =x

day 2 * woke up so early and went to eat breakfast! went to sungei wang again bcause i haven`t shopped finish, bought alot of stuffs there. and i saw that same boy again! but this time he was working so i just said hi and smile and went off. shopped till 9pm plus and went to buy some stupid thingy! =x went back to the hotel and saw the twin tower , my eyes nearly dropped out cause its so damn fucking gorgeous at night! hmm, reached the hotel and went to bathe, and played that stupid game again =/ but this time more even worst, my sis and cousin mixed lots of wine together and both got drunked! lame girls .

day 3 * woke up early again and went to bathe! , packed all my stuffs and was ready to head back to s'pore! aww man , i went back to sungei wang to bid goodbye to that handsome boy and TATA, left msia already ! ='(

idiotic assasins?

had a ks war yesterday, damn those assasins! nothing but pure ksers. was training with songhan and kimseng, and this group of 'o so pro assasins' came and ks us, damn those people! throwing steely just to be proud, they even called their guild leader to come ! but too bad, the guild leader helped us =D such a nice person ! not like those 'oh so pro assasins'.

ahahs. cute pearline

made pearline cried last night,
so sorry baby! forgive my yeahs? i was only joking around last night, but i dont know whats gotten over me that caused me to .... you! but it was quite funny though, bleahs xP

MAPLE!

sweet !
maple leveled 46, fast yeahs? =x was very busy chionging maple this few days that i ignored all sms and calls from all sorts of friends that i have! well the reason i chionged so fast is also because school is re-opening and i really don`t have much time to play anymore.

maple leveling!

maple going to level 46 !

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i play maple until i have forgotten all the pain caused by him! lame rights? a game can make me forget everything, so proud of myself =D

lvled!

level 45 liao !

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he messaged me again, just when i was about to totally forget about him! he has to sms me. luckily he didn`t reply me after that! and i thank him for doing that, cause i wanna forget about everything about us =D

talkin about msges ...

i kinda deleted all the msges that she sent to me last tyme, cause i feel that it is just a piece of crap! a lie that changed my life forever? didn`t bother to ask her why did she have to do that, cause i reckon she won`t even bother to explain to me too? well just wanna live my life the way that i want , without any love relationship cause it sucks ! =x

lvled!

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i am level 44 in maple ! going to be level 45, too fast =D . slept from 6am to 9am, wake up chiong maple till 7pm and woke up at 1am just to play maple again?! this is what i meant by CRAZY, i play till my eyes are terribly swollen! didn`t know that maple is such addictive.

lene loves edison

HEH! my edi pic , have lots more wor ! =)

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i guess that everyything is alright between me and her now , ^^ but the only thing that i don`t get it is why must that 'girl-fren' of mine lie to me and simin? in order to make me and simin hate each other?! i see no benefit for her if she has done that! the only reason that i can think of is because of that guy! now i realise what is the meaning of love is so selfish, you have to sacrifice something in order to get love. so she sacrificed our friendship in order to get his love? i am so glad that i found out the truth after being fooled by her all this months.

edison!

Eddie ! <33333 euu *mwarrksx*

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i am so bored! maple is down for maintenance? to remove those irritating drops by the monster, can u imagine that if u killed a monster , u have to pick up 7 items and 4 of them are actually USELESS?! holy crap.

cute guys totally rocks

he is so damn cute!

just know him through maple, he is quite a caring,kind and gentle guy! from this few days that i have observed, and he is a cutie boy too. showed me a picture of him and i hope he didn`t lie to me lahs. ((x

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you can`t easily give up on true love. if that true love can be given up then it isn`t true love after all !

对於未来,过去,
我什么都无法确定，
唯一确定的是我喜欢你..

wTF la

WA PIANG EH !
i hate XIAOQIAN - rainbow connection.
she nort compatible with jianyi !
YOYO ish 100tyms better then her.
and that jianyi , jerk ! one moment
like yoyo another moment like
xiaoqian? somemore kiss with xq !
and broked up with yoyo , fcuk lar.

YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!
YOYO AND JIANYI!

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JIANYI AND XIAOQIAN? BOOO!!!
JIANYI AND XIAOQIAN? BOOO!!!
JIANYI AND XIAOQIAN? BOOO!!!
JIANYI AND XIAOQIAN? BOOO!!!
JIANYI AND XIAOQIAN? BOOO!!!


SAVE ME !
I AM GOING CRAZY ~
-RELAX , JUS E SHOW!

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OKAY~ i have calmed down,
hhmms , chat with wen just now
whoa. i didnt know she is that scary.

she curse people till damn terrible.

wenwen says:den tear d skin
wenwen says:ya
wenwen says:their hearts
wenwen says:lungs
wenwen says:vein
wenwen says:vessels
wenwen says:skeleton
wenwen says:liver
wenwen says:big intestine
wenwen says:small intestine
wenwen says:dig out their eyes
wenwen says:knock out their teeth
wenwen says:use parang cut
wenwen says:off their tongue
wenwen says:pull their hair off their head
wenwen says:cut off their ear
wenwen says:car bang
wenwen says:d wheel mux smash their head
wenwen says:den d head flat flat
wenwen says:den got d juice
wenwen says:d brain squashed
wenwen says:the eyes pop come out
wenwen says:rollin around d floor
wenwen says:d face got cut
wenwen says:bleedin
wenwen says:non-stop
wenwen says:den d wheel cut off their head


[ taken from wen ] -
NIGHTMARES!
*AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS*

but thanks to her, i am finally
feeling happier instead of thinking
of that "omfg" girl !

omfg, i just died in maple! 81%, do you even know that 5% for my level is so hard to get? i really feel like banging the wall and die now . damn that girl who took my glass shoes! made me die, feel like slapping her face now.

OMFG !
ii actually forgotten tu watch
Stars Awards? piangzs eh.
WAS SLEEPING LIKE A PIG
*snores snores snores* zzz .
damn it lar . * sobbiezs*

=)) playing maple just now
LVL 42 ! OLE OLE OLE ~
went back to victoria liaozs .
on the ship saw balrog .
piangzs eh , lucky gort press
magic guard, *phewwzs*
hmmzs, reached victoria !
whoa , missed there ^^ .

ahh .. many happy things
happened today ! ^^ , but ..
suddenly rmbed him, *sobbiezs*
why cant he just tell me that he
hates me ? maybe i will more happy
rather den letting me feel guilty.

[ sorry for what i have done , hope you will
forgive me barhzs . didnt mean to hurt
so deeply, just that ... ahh , nevermind .
hope you will understand lorhzs ]

miie twin sista - as if .. just look alike nia !

G.I.A - GAY IN ACTION *

miie actin as a ghost in maple =x . look like 1 hohs ? -.=

there is somethiing terriibly wrong with me ,
ii keep calling the wrong person !
supposed to call kenneth but ii go call daneiil
and ii can even forget my own hp num.
WTF! , ii am gettin' old .

omfg , im obsessed with
edi ! he is gawd-dammit cute.
watched Twin Effect 7times today,
only focus on Edis' part, he is way
too cute ~ love him to the core !
have lots lots lots of his pics in my
computer =)) ~ crazyy over him ,
shall stop here le . buai

LUBB EDDIE
("v")

ZZZ !!!
ROTTING ~
nothing to do ..
force myself to slp till 7pm everyday !
-.-" like a pig ~

maple , finally lvl 40 ..
after SO long ! ..

kkx, nothing to say liao ..
zzz ..

ugly girl .. boooo

lacus and miio !

frens ~

me and song

me and song fiting

ke ai - chio bu - yu nu

frens ~

lame der~

19 november ;
daddy's burfdae ,
got him a digital camera.
arghh ! 600+ , and hmmx
headed for dinner ..

21st november ;
went to my 'cousins' wedding
at sheraton hotel ,
WHOA. SO NICE
the bride looks pretty !
*every bride looks pretty,duhh*
and uhh everything dere was
SO GORGEOUS, saw a few
of my CHAO SHUAI de cousin
and ermms .. some aunties?
whoa , wear until so .. sparkling,
see ler osho headache liao, >.<" .

went out with carmen,
songhan,orhlulu and aug.
funny lor , went to sakae
sushi and eat.. tsktsk $70
plus ar?! haha! then ..
went to take neos , look
damn funny lar ! hahax
denn ... went to play
arcade.. and watched movie!!
siianx, watch halfway .. carmen
go back liao , -.-" left me alone..
den kenna sua'ed by them ..
idiot.. haiix .. don wan sae ler..
hate lookin at my hp now , makes
me rmb of tt thing .. feel like
throwing it away! haiix

WEET , today carmen birthday
wor ~ going out with her =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
CARMEN~

kkx . feeling very energetic
even though its oredi 2am liao !
playing maple and talkin
on the phone. zZz

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maple lvl 36 nia, SO SLOW!
maybe no mood to chiong lar..
nowadaes dono how come suddenly
no mood to chiong for maple,
booo* everybody is catching up!

ARGHX

i was so bored
so i took this
out from friendster`s
bulletin.

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[-] I'm afraid of the quiet.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[-] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[-] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love.
[-] I've ran away from home.
[-] I listen to political music.
[-] collect comics books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[-] I stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news. sometimes!
[-] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[-] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[-] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse often.
[x] I have (had) "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a realconversation.
[-] I love Spam.
[-] I bake well.
[-] I have worn pajamas to class.
[-]I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[-] I have a job.
[x] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours.
[x] I like someone. love is more like it! haha.
[-] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I have tried alcohol.
[-] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[-] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I've been out of this country. duh!
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in theroom.
[x] I love chocolate.
[-] I bite my nails.
[x] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[-] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[-] Seen a shooting star.
[-] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[-] Have kissed a stranger.
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[-] Been in a fist fight.
[-] Been arrested.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] Swore at your parents.
[-] kicked a guyy where it hurts on purpose.
[-] Been bungee jumping.
[-] gotten stiches
[-] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] Bitten someone.
[-] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[x] Crashed into a car.
[-] gone to australia.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[-] Shoplifted.
[-] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[-] Stole something from your job.
[-] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[-] Been to Europe.
[-] Slept with a co-worker.
[-] Been married.
[-] Gotten divorced.
[x] saw someone/something dying.
[-] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[-] Been to Canada.
[x] been on a plane
[-] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[-] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[x] Cried in public.
[-] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7. not almost. its really 24/7.
[x] Hated the world. with an ED.

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got very fucked up
& pissed off when i saw
her blog!

[TO HER ;] - just wanna tell her !
HEYS!! IF YOO DUNCH KNOW ANYTHING.
PLEASE JUST SHUT URE MOUTH YEAH?!
AFTER I B.F WITH YOO, I DIDNT
MSG HIM FOR 2MONTHS!!
AFTER 2MOONTHS THEN HE MSGED ME,
SAYING TT U ARE A BITCH. SO IT
ISN`T REALLY MY FUCKING PROBLEM
IF HE HATES YOO! GEDDIT?! DONT
GO AND TALK RUBBISH, SAYING TT
I CAUSED HIM TO HATE YOO!
BLAME IT ON URESELF TT YOO ACTED INNOCENT
INFRONT OF DHE BOYS AND HE SAW
IT HIMSELF!!

---------------

deny ; t0 sae that s0mething s0meone said ab0ut euu is n0rt true
admit ; to accept and agree unwillingly that something is true or someone else is right

i admit tt i scolded yoo a BITCH and
all sorts of stuffs ! BUT YOO DID IT
TOO, AND U DENIED, plus i HATE yoo
is not bcos of tht GUY, is becos of tht
'THING' , yoo happily told her tt
yoo did not BACKSTAB but YOO DID
and yoo pushed all the blame on me ?!
C.SENSE RIGHT?! HATE YOU BCOS
OF TT GUY FOR WAD?! LAME LARHX!

now at school der computer lab bloggin`.
very bored nia , doing some lame robotics
stuffs !!! FEEL LIKE ZZZ .
Daddy birthday coming soonx.
donno wad to buy lar !!
no $$$ ... pok liaox .. haha

maple lvl 35 liaox !
so slow ... arghx
don feel like chiong`ing
it liaox lor !! hahaxx..
kkayx lar .. after i.t den
blog liaox. . buaix

WOOO!
i did my blog liao~
DANGOU FOREVER!!
hehes, rmbed my security
pin also, so lucky today lar .

my blog nice mah?
hope so lar , first time do nia.
im damn damn obsessed with
MD!! *muackiies* love him
he is so charming <333 and
sweet . ^^

nanana ~ love him forever.
MD FOREVER+ .

Finally got the mood to blog liao !
*sianzs* lost my maple the security pin.
somemore have to go all the way to
FUNAN IT MALL!
luckily got people accompany me ,
if not i bored to death liao lor ! heehee~
kkay lar . stop here liao .. bb

whoa ~
1 week+ never blog ler,
^^ getting lazier to blog liao.

had been playing maple
this few days lor.
xmissylene < ADD MER!
quit playing all my other
maple accc ler~ .
so those who add my last
time acc der, can delete
away tt user liao ~

HUMPH , holiday lai ler.
nothing to do !! going to
malaysia bah. -.-"
so stupid , i got no $$$ to
go there lor, FREAK!!
=( x 1000000 .

WAHS!
watched the frog prince
de jie wai pian, tmd
cry like hell lar!
DO died of CANCER, YX died
cause of car accident!!!
DO only have 1month left to live.
TY very poor thing lor, but lucky
this is only the JIE WAI PIAN.
-

HAO AI TA. HAO XIANG TA +

sian lar .
went to comp lab during
eng lesson, have to play
word game lor. me and peijuan
play the shark game play till
siao, she at lvl 7 jiu die le,
i lvl 13 still haven die.
siao de lar me, den after recess,
got 1 teacher came into our class
den say at 2.30 have review of
hist paper, sian lar! fail my hist
32/100. WHOLE CLASS FAIL. the highest
in hist de also fail lor, 70+ drop
to 48 marks, become the highest
in the failures. LOL! kkay lar ,
tt all le , bye

WAHS! darn long no blog ler.

18th Oct ;
nothing much happened in
school. After school went
to Suntec City! DARN FAR HOH?
Take car go, den got the
hump ar, the car suddenly
BUNG. den me and pjuan sueh sueh
BANG on our head lor. sueh sueh
den after that went to jingwen hse.
HER BRO SO CUTE! 3months old nia,
KAWAII!

19th Oct ;
got back eng paper, 80+/140,
lousy lar! pass 5 subjs!! happy
larhs, i tot i will retain de.
LOLS! after school went to 450
chat chat with ruay and peijuan.
sommore hy diao pj! dig out his
eyeballs lar, hais .. lol
kkays den after that go back.
wahahah, tht all ler. bye

weeeee

BORED`
gotta nothing to do at home,
was supposed to go out with
kenneth,iris and deneil but
cant, my dad saw me and i had
to go home even before meeting
them. SORRY YARS?!

Talked with Reng Hao for awhile
cause he was feeling sad. CHEER UP!
^^ .

Ruayngoen smsed me , asked if I can
go and play basketball. EHHS?! Raining
so heavily, so cannot. ARGHHHS-

That's about all le bahhs. BUAI!




-because of yoo.
im ashamed of my life
cause it is empty .

ARGHS!
so darn pissed off ,
I AM GONNA TO MY
GRANDMA'S HOUSE!
OMG` DISGUSTING larhs.
I bet they cant wait for
me to get there, so that
they can NAG NON-STOP.
EWWWW, hate them to the core!
[ refering to my dad's side ]

done a lame personality test
just now, umms. kinda true larhs
BUT NOT FOR THAT STUPID PART.
EEEEW, SO NOT TRUE?! yucks.
disgusting larhs. VOMITS BLOOD`

ahemms, talked on the phone
ytd too, 3hrs 27mins, talked
till my ear pain. kept talkin
about '******' ehhs? Her ex
was in the conference too!
shocked lar, she gotta a ex.
Cant believe that she was
the one that really hacked
my maple acc , oOlene , sicko!
so rich le, still hack ppl acc.
lame`shit.

argh

walao , just now went to watch
skeleton key , DARN FREAKY CAN?!
I just my bag and cover my eyes
for like almost the whole freaking show.
CRAZYSHOW! Esp the part when the
old man trying to .... umms , dont know
how to say it ?! The ending was not
quite good larhhs.

Went to take neoprints after that ,
spent quite alot of money on neosx
but its all worth it yeah? LOL!
Gonna save up LOTSA LOTSA money
and watch CHICKEN LITTLE and
my trip to MALAYSIA, SHOPPING SPREE!

BOOHOOHOO!
3days dont need
to go school ~ I will
be so darn bored!!
hmmm, plus weekends
... 5DAYS!

just finished exams,
yays. I am gonna
flung terribly ?!
hope not , *prays*

gotta nothing to do ,
school is ending soon.
ARGHS! I have watching
shows this few days, eyes
are kinda pain !! BOREDD.
lent aug vcd , weizhe too and
next i am gonna to lend peijuan
in the end , i have nothing to
watch, boohoos!! But lucky
i have plannings of where
to go during the holis!
-beach?!
-snow city
-that bing diao thing
-elaine's house!
-hopefully, ktv

ole! hope can have a gathering
with shar and gang also !
so freakin' miss them,
love them for life .

whoa !
four days didnt blog,
broke my record.

ehs, exams kinda
hard .. Don't really
know how to do.
god bless me dont
retain and get
promoted to sec2!!

watched ccs again.
do i sound kinda childish?!
sakura is so darn cute!
that lee boy also ,
omg !! fallin in love with
them, hehe.

asdasd

arghs ! what am i thinking of ?
feeling so down nowadays, dont
know what is wronq with me !
i feel so nort myself. sighsx ..

chinese paper 1 today and
i did not have a DICTIONARY .
Wanted tu buy from the bkshop,
but out of stock ! DUHHHS..
wanted to borrow from 107 peeps.
cause that lee song han said that their
1st paper was HISTORY.
HOLYCRAP! , went to asked
one of the students and they
said that their 1st paper was
chinese paper 1 ! that liar .

during exams gort scolded
by mdm rani cause i forgotten to
tie the 2sheets of paper together,
she is totally insane larhs! Just abit only
shout shout shout ler, forget it ..

darn bored now !
supposed to study but , damn tired
so rest awhile . sci exams is tomorrow!
damn it ! i dont know how to read
a vernier caliper?! oh my ...

wo hao xiang bao zhe ni su ku . -
wo zhi xiang yao he ni zai yi qi . -

hmmsx kinda happy today,
didnt study much for english
hahas ! we were suppose
to draw a comic strip , my one
darn cartoon larhs. stickman
doesnt looks like stickman.
During science lessons went to
the computer lab ! All thnks
to the drilling outside , we can
enjoy 1hr of aircon. hmmmsx,
after that was Mr Low's lesson,
sianzation . kkays dont wanna
blog much . bye !


wo xiang zhe yi ding shi bao ying .-
dou guai wo tai tan xing `

- pissed off !

what do yoo take us for,
some kinda tissue paper?
i know we have been
harsh on yoo when
we wrote the letter but
we really carnt take your
attitude anymore thats
why we wrote that letter,
and we much expected
that yoo would cry. yeaps
once you cry , everybody
will think that we are bullyinq
yoo, makinq everybody hate
us but what we were writinq
is all the fact ! I should nort have
trusted yoo so much ! Even
Natasha told me so , yeahs .
i blame myself for being sucha
fool all this while , leaving
a person that treats other
people as a used tissue paper.

lala

- ITCHYNESS !

BLEAHSX ! i think
i have qotten a mosquito
bite , ouchies ~ its so
damn itchy , scratch till
my leq qonna bleed.
- sobbies !

went to comp lab during
history lesson. boring` !!
nearly wanted to sleep but
mr goon keep on lookinq.
boh bians , have to act that
i am payinq attention.
guo honq scolded cheebye to
teacher? alah , that mad quy~
whole mouth ish full ob
vulgarities and have such
a bad attitude lorhs.

*giggles* haha , erms after
school went to mondi and
eat, its was raininq darn
heavily and the wind was
so stronq. it nearly blew
me away too ! ahacksx .
i was only jokinq yeah?

created dis private bloq.
nort for anyone to know,
just qoinq to write down
all my personal problems
in there.

life ish so stressful !
Sometimes ,, dying is the
best way to solve all the problems

la

yays . i finally changed my blogskin !
chio mahs? *pukes* lol !
ermms , going to ah ma hse later.
after that den blog bahs . hahas

had my english
paper 1 and 2 ytd.
i actually forgotten to do
the summary ?
how stupid can i get !!
arghs and that stupid
teacher is so bias , she
gave those indian people
extra time ! this is being
so unfair to the malay
and chinese people ! hate
her

funnie larhs.
that auntie , lol ! asked us if we wanna share her umbrella. paisehs lorh ! lol somemore i nearly kenna knocked down by a bicycle. LOL!

I.T , sians larhs. nothing much to do, wanna slp liao der. but the teacher keep on naggin naggin naggin, hahas den jiu go out eat. mondi uncle treat us eat sia. $10 ?! i think he win 4d lorhs. hahas

so freaking happie and upset today !!
cause of 2 things .

[o1] * maple -happy
woooots , finally lvled up.
now it is lvl 15! ehhs, kinda
lousy larhs but i put in alorts
of efforts in it dehs okay !

[o2] * problem -unhappy
sigh sigh sigh, gort another
problem with that vanessa
again but this time wasn't my
fault at all. Don't even know her
then she scolded jiamin and i,
mad mad mad mad mad. this world
is getting more insane, day by day.
aiyahhhs, don't know larhs.
GRRRS GRRRS !!!

well wells. today in class was quite funny
cause a cockroach came in ?! alort of peeps
were screaming especially the girls. Pj, simin
and I stood on the chair !! it was so disgusting
cause the boy's just stepped on it and it squashed
with the juice spurting out !! ewws ~

erms during art time also quite fun,
mdm tay helped me with my art piece. nort bad!
it looked nicer cause my art sucks like hell?! I cant
even draw properly, booo!!

after school, went to mondi and eat after that i went
home with pj and hx (=

ps: watch news [channel8] 6.30pm or 10pm

asdasd

today i was kinda pissed off,
lots of projects was not done.
very very stressed up , there was so many
projects to do. English, Lit and Dnt , most of
the stuffs was done by Peijuan and I.

there was I.T today , kpo'd awhile and went
to see other class photo. Damn funny !! Some
of the friends that i know really changed alot ?!
as in the looks. (= that guy really changed alot,
from that mushroom hair became spiky. now there is
only 1 word to describe him and that is shuai!

after I.T , went to play basketball with jingwen,
elaine and peijuan. Quite fun ..
Jingwen scored quite a number of san fen qiu.

oh wells. had been thinking the whole night. I think i should really
concentrate more on my studies instead of the guy that i like .
yeah. studies first ! if i fail this time, i am going be
in deep troublee. hurhur ~

quite a few days didnt blog liao.
kinda missed my blog ~
nth much happened lor , but today
knew alot of bad things about
myself ler . gonna swear upon my
god that i will STOP using vulgarities
unless i really cannot take it and i will
study hard and show those who has once
looked down on me and prove that i am
good for something ! =]

haha

last night went out with PJ.SY.BOY
to play candles . very fun larhs but
we were dere tuu feed mosquitoes.
hahas somemore we gort surrounded
by cats . *faints* so disgusted !
btw, i dont like that "A" person lars!
so stop being so childish and saying
that i like him lorhs ! you are getting
me into trouble larhs.

during school . damn sians lar
except art lessons , mdm tay
say i blur ! >.<" errr den
after that went to watch
a movie " one more chance "
with JW . PJ and EL , damn
funny ler. kinda vulgar lar, got
wad BLP ders ! we all keep laughing
like siao charbohs lohs.

=[ kinda sad too , cause i have
finally decided to give him up
after 6months of liking him .
cause ... i think he likes another
girl liao lerhs? threw away tht
alphabet that i have carved .
saddening lorhs . * hurts *

wadever

=) kinda happy today ~
wahaha . kenna scolded
by mr low again . aiyah
forget it lar , he always
siao siao want . haha

lalala

[edit] dont wanna talk about
school stuffs ~ went back to
gps with Jiamin and Marilyn .
saw HT and her rebonded hair,
ers okay okay lorhs? after that
went to 201 mac . saw weizhe
and gang , decided to ignore
them lar . treat them as
transparent =) . after that went
back to gps and went home liao

asdasd

_ [[ muahh room +
yippe ! i finally packed my
room liao lerh ! cleared so many
rubbish. so happy , now can finally
paste up the stuffs that i have carved
in DNT ler worhs !

_ [[ con ~ +
=) yesterday chat on the phone with ruay,
aug and that guy ! happy lar.
heard his voice for only 52mins
but it is already enough ?!

_[[ hong kong disneyland +
it will be officially opened tomorrow !
got this info from
http://www.vintage-melody.org
OMFG ! it is damn nice lerhs ~ hope to go
there during DEC . hope Singapore
will have a disneyland too ~




my derrick . BOTAK LER ~

er , okay ler . stop here liao !
buaiz!

adas

will you ever know how much i love yoo ?

ii am sh0o bored now !
school is gonna re0pen in a few
days time and i still need to
do 2m0re homework ?! *sighzx*
hope everything will be better
when school reopen lerhs .

sh0o missiing him now .
when will he ever know that
i love him ?! *sighzx* hurs
kkays write till here lerhs.
bye !

asdADSD!@!@!@~@

_[[ studying +
went to study with pj.xy.hx.sy ?!
nort really studying but is .. so-so
lar ?! after awhile xy went to watch
the bball match in school , and the
rest of us went to slack around ler .
saw kimsiong , marvin and rest lor?
after awhile jiu going back ler ? sy
gone crazie liao leh ! she chase us
until i want to faint ler . she gort
so much strength leiz.

hee

feeling so happy now !
after calming down ~
watched finish MDWAV3 ~
i slept at 4am yesterday
just to finished that stupid
show..

haish i am sh0o missing him now.
although i just saw him yesterday?!
when then he will know that i really
like him der. If he know ler , i oso
donno wad tuu do . he may think
that i am siao lorhs. but i am not !
i know what am ii doing . alort
people sed that ish cannot be derhs.
but never try , how would they know?

fcukkk ~!

argh ! i am so agitated and pissed off now
so forgive me if i overused vulgarities !
so damn angry now , just now went
home with hx and pj. talking about ..
if ya all know who issit just zip
your mouth la !! that person is so
shity lor . say i extra ?! you think
i wanna follow you de huhs ? don
so bu yao lian la !! freako . i had enough
of you liao , so wad u bigger den me ?!
u dont have to like dat say people de
hohs. u watch out la ~ next time later
tongue kenna chop off ?! gort that 1
jiu je yi hao lian le meh!? like people
dont have like tat. alamak , you tai
gao gu ni zi ji le bah?

went to play basketball loh.
so-so la , augustine , kimsiong
and ruayngoen's fren were there .
haha. later ruay fren gone le . gotta
few more guys , other school de .
saw Zhi Yuan too , dunno he rmb
who am I anot . haha , after that
7 jiu go home liao . wahaha

yay!

_ [[ about him +
argh , i am so irritated now
he keep smsing me with those
stupid messages . he is trying
to make me like him ?! no way,
i only love the other guy. i
really regretted knowing him,
he is so .... and .... , i rather
give him to shuhui eh !

_ [[ later +
yippe ! i am going out with
ruayngoen to play basketball !!
wooooot . finally get to play with
her again liao le . long time no play!
meet her at 3 and i am still not ready.
*alamak *


WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME ?!
you are nothing in my eyes.

mooo

ahak ! i am back ~
today , i didnt went
out again . i was too
busy helping my sis
to lvl her stupid maple.
LOL but i play for her 1hr
only i stop le . i have to
lvl mine too rights ?
i have created a new acc .
bleahhhs.
it is xmissylene , add me
if ya wanna .

_ [[ on the phone +
talking to Shuhui on the phone
awhile and she said she will
call back later . waited for
about an hr or so , she still
didnt call me back ? -.-"

_ [[ updates +
updated my blog with a
few pictures and i have
changed the layout !
wooo . with 2 cows ?
MOOOO , yea yea.
i am getting 'siao'
already. anyway
there is a derrick and sebast
photo . the girl is the middle
is actually sin huey , but i erased
her face cause i tot ... she was
a lil bit too extra?


this is da pic i am referring about.

haha

x)) last night chat on da phone
with BingJia and Shuhui. Quite
shocked bahs , cause bingjia
damn damn damn long never
called me liao lor . ^^ , that
about all le bah , later my
sis coming back ! heehs. okay
bye le .

waha

_ [[ yesterday +
hurhurs. yesterday was the last
day of tm3 already. so happy
although i have to carry back alot
of books ! damn it ~ but it was alright?
went to mondi and sit awhile , saw
augustine and gang la . hate them
to the core , why must they be so
kpo and tell everybody leh? so
angry yesterday lor. i took all the
drinks and slammed it on the floor.
after that i cooled down le , and he
have to came at the 'bu shi dang de
shi jian' , i was so paiseh lor ?! after
that ... go home liao le bahx.

I HATE HIM FOR LIFE !

_ [[ smsing him` +
he also msged me yesterday night
so happy ! although smsing
him reminds me of what happened
between me and her. Really regret
liao, if i wasn't so sensitive last time,
nothing would have happened.

WHY MUST ALL THIS
HAPPEN TO ME ?!

_ [[ on the phone +
talked on the phone with shuhui too.
felt a lil better when talking to her ?!
but i just can't stop complaining abt
******* to her lohs, truely sorrry. i should not
even mention about him le. since i already
made up my mind to give him up once
and for all liao le =] haha, okae that is
about all . ciao!

ps : used the same style of writing as
celia but i have asked her permission

waaaa

<3broken'd




let us run forever,
till death apart us.



- you promise that you will
never leave me alone,
but you did. #

pics pics pics.

aisyah and natasha ! (=

fitri - being carried - and ridhwan!

fitri and gang

white board

them playing the balloon.

my 2 form teachers ! chio bah ?

teachers cake !

hahax

_ [[ the girls +
what is happening to my class's girls?
- [ not the chinese girls la ] -
they are ... , i dont know what to say.
they changed alot?! including me lor.
this month is totally so sueh!? maybe
cause of 7th month bah? hope nx month
will change. (=

_ [[ teacher's day +
ehh nothing happened much today.
every year's teacher day will surely
have concert and party. but erms this year is ..
ok-ok, there was a grp dancing bah.
a lil boy called Ragu -liddat spell?-
he has so flexible leg! (= after the
concert went back to class ?!

_[[ in class +
my class was decorated with balloons !
oh shit, i hate balloons, my classmates
keep bursting and throwing them around.
damn scary, then me and peijuan are like
the photographers of the day. keep takin'
pictures ?! haha, when ms tan and mdm rani
came in, the boys bad sia. spray crazy ribbon
at them ?! they were in a mess ! after that
went back to GPS le.

_ [[ at GPS +
saw alot of people , nearly want to cry
sia. Rmb'd all the happy moments there.
It was much much much more better then
sec school. Met that MATTHEW TONG, he is
so irritating la! hate him to the core. Know this
guy called Jia Jun bah. Hmm , he is so-so lo?
victoria de ? , went up to staff room and
find ms lai and ms phua ?! their table
was full of 6/6s,6/8s and 6/4s ! told
teacher about her lor . that freaking
bitch ! hate her to the core liao la
hahas that is all i wanna say le. bye !

gonna post the pics lata !

hahaha

me and peijuan . i was wearing a
blue tag on my ears?


ahakz! this is me , before going to
the chalet? so ugly !!

haiish`.

Today is gonna be a LONG post.

29th Aug' 05 -
yesterday's school life was damn
sians. I don't know what happen
to me , i just can't hold back my
tears. So i started to cry , its like ..
nahhhhh, nevermind !! Went out
with Aisyah and Shuhui. Quite fun
went to walk around TM and CS.
took neoz too ?! but LOL it looked
quite funny cause i didn't smile
at all . ahakz

30th Aug'05 -
whoa ! blogged 2 time today.
i suppose everything is alright
btween me and her?! Hope so.
Aisyah cried today , cause she
thought i backstab her, den i told
the truth to her la. after that
misunderstanding is cleared but
she somehow doubt it lor.

_ [[ slut ?! +
Today there was another matter,
some girl called ShuHui a slut!
I was like ' duhhh, what did shuhui
do this time round?' She said that
Shuhui is giving attitute to them.
What did shuhui do wrong? They
throw shuhui alone , they backstab
her but dont dare to admit. Everything
is like OUR fault, why cant those
people just look in the mirror and
see for themselves? Are they perfect?
They are not us, they dunno how we
feel when people call us sluts. If i call
them a prostitute, i dont think they
will like it too. Why cant they just shut
their gap and stop complaining so much?!
I really hate them now , they dare to
say that i have changed. But they
themselves were the ones that really changed.

_ [[ maths lessons +
During Maths lessons.
Mr Low is really mad.
I cannot stand him
ANYMORE! He is the
WORST maths teacher
i have ever seen. How
can he say such a stupid
thing when a student
asked him a qns? he said
" i dont wanna answer
your qns, it is a stupid qns."
LOL but he cute la. like potato lor? ^^

_ [[ ("v") brokened +
walked pass music room today
and i saw him playing basketball,
i really don't know what to say or
what to do. I really want to give
him up but looking at him makes
me think of the happy memories
that happened to us last time ??!
Tried to be as cold as I can infront
of him so that I will make myself
hate him, but i seriously can't !
Argh , can someone just save me?

* there's nowhere else i rather be #
% but right here, next to you ;

only hope. ((=

there's a song that inside of my soul.
it's the one that i've tried,
to write over&over again.
i'm awake in the infinite cold,
but you sing to me,
over&over, and over again.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands and pray,
to be only yours
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.

sing to me the song of the stars.
of your galaxy dancing,
and laughing&laughing again.
when it feels like my dreams are
so far, sing to me of the plans,
that you have for me over again.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands and pray,
to be only yours
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.

i give you my destiny.
i'm giving you all of me.
i want your symphony.
singing in all that i am.
at the top of my lungs,
i'm giving it back.

so i lay my head back down,
and i lift my hands and pray,
to be only yours
i pray to be only yours.
i know now you're my
only hope.

wadever

you don't need to pretend,
nor do you need to act;
as though you care,
as though you give a damn.

don't give me that fake smile,
it's not gonna help.
don't ask me if i'm okay,
you know jolly well i'm not.

it's a shame how we ended,
and what's left is pretendence.
it's like me, willing to die;
living in this big lie.

don't pretend anymore,
don't hurt me anymore,
don't torture me anymore,
please,
don't lie to me anymore.

don't suffocate me further;
it's beyond what i can take.
don't stab my heart all over again,
it's beyond what i call pain.

but after all;
you gave me a before.
so should i thank you,
for acting like you cared?
or should i hate you,
for pretending like you cared?

[edit]

chalet was kinda fun on the first day.
we had barbeque, but quite afew peeps
didnt eat lor. after that go plae bowling
jiu go home liao. hahahax

[edited]

_ [[ that idiots ! +
fuck yoo idiots !!
i have had enough of your nonsense.
what is my personal life gotta do with you?!
to me , you guys are nothing but a bunch
of fuckers in my eyes. You dont know what is going on
with my life , then u all jus shut the fuck up and
don't ever compare me with that BITCH! I am
NOT her. And now i decided , i wanna STUDY hard.
dont wanna let people look down on me maybe
even worst say i STUPID/IDIOT, i already trying
my best to change my attitute. but must give
some time de right?! i WILL change de!!

_ [[ during DNT +
today during DNT lessons. we started doing
the magazine rack. ((x i feel so .. happy cause
i think that my base is damn nice lor .. -bhb la-
haha after that .. maths le, kns la ! kenna scolded
by mr low .. that idiot teacher ~ dont want to say
wad he scold le . i think about it only feel like
punching people le.. LOL after that stay back
for DNT again ?! ((= was playing around lor.
used the plastic and saw out my name .
LOL LOL. quite cute la. but the 'o' dont
reall look like 'o' , it look like a animal cell .. LOL
den after that jiu go back home and pack my
house le .. but haven pack finish la .. still packing ..
i pack 5mins jiu tired le .. hahaha.

=]

argh! i am so stressed up by everybody ?!
they are all forcing me to study .
they dont have anything better to do issit?!
askin me to study is like asking me to die ~
i hardly even study in school , all i do is slack
or sleep ..

met this new guy called ...... ... ,
really hate him to the core ?!
he is sucha fucker, SO IRRITATING.
keep saying he was *** ****.
its like , 'pls la .. look in the mirror. how
can u be *** ****.' i am not trying to
be whatever lors. but it is the fact !

((x on thurs we are gonna have a talk ..
erms about ....... whatever ! dont wanna
mention it , i am afraid i might spoil my
appetite. LOL , now i am going on a diet le.
i am like so fat now lor?! >.<"

((x

((x finally i have the mood to blog!!

- Saturday -
went out with ruay
to play basketball lors. haha
but the basketball court
too full le lor ! so went
to Mondi and chat and eat la
[a food stall across my sku] !
that uncle siao wan lor.
take our basketball
and bounce and bounce
like nv play b4 liddat ..
completely siao ! then he told
us lotsa stuffs lor.
kinda interruptin cause i was
talkin' to ruayngoen
mahs .. argh ! old man , LOL ..

- Sunday -
went to my ahma hse to
celebrate my aunt's bd.
VERY fun ! i love going
there although its damn far.
((x my aunt settled for
me my hp bill .. i feel so ..
guilty lor ? owas got
problem i will first to find them
wan lor. okay la ..
the whole thing was quite fun cause
i get to see my cousins ?!
kinda fun cause i seldom
see them .. maybe 1yr 1
time or .. 6mnths 1 time lor.
((x okay la.. that about all le ..

- Monday -
ermms. got back my
maths,sci and geog paper..
failed my maths and
geog , kinda SUCK .
maths got only 5 ?!
LOL at least still can la .. =x ,
geog .. got 10 ! failed by ..
2 and a half. but overall
pass lor. heng heng ~
during CME discussed about
the chalet thingy. ARGH!~
talked about 30mins lor
stupid teacher .. ~ my grp
have to bring 10packets
or hotdog .. dunno whether
even have enough anot lor.
okae la .. that about all le .. buaiis ~

ARGH! i am mad over the show~
[love at aegean sea] =]
soo romantic sia.
okay okay .. ermms nth much
happen la only in maple got
a mad guy lor .. keep saying
i love you ? OMFG.
don have to liddat sae de
wot .. make me ps .. LOL
jk , kae la . nth to blog le .. BYe!

haizz.

o.O!
now in IT lab again !
=] learning dreamweaver!!
hahaha saw him just now ..
erms outside mondi , i ..
really feel sad la , we like
not even friends le, sumore
someone told me that .. he
dont like any1 liao lors.. ?
-hurts!-

argh

im getting lazier to blog day by day.
but *sighs* nvm ~!!! Today i finally
did what i was supposed to do long time ago!
which was not to friend her ?!
I know she will complain de bahs.
and saying that.. "Jolene everytime liddat wan"
and she will say all the shit out, causing
everybody in my class to hate me de lors?!
But do you really thing i would care wad the
fcuk she says? Nv judge a book by its cover.
u guys havent seen her true colours !
so , wotever. Okays, today that fcukin bitch,
MS SEE- came to our class and detained us
cause we were being SO noisy and we had
to even write REFLECTION. oh shit her !
but quite funny lar. most of the girls saw
ms see and we were like. "ms see ms see!!",
den tuck in our shirts. LOL very natural wan la
if not she will "STARE" at us. wtf, hate her. LOL
okay la. that all liao bahsz. byyes!

SO SICK.

ehs. SO SICK , havin
fever ! 39.5 degree
high fever. hmmms
den .. cannot do
pe for 5 days ?! wtf , SO SICK!!
dont even have appetite to
eat le . HAIS, really hate this!

waha

-12th August-
Weeets! Went to Marina South carnival~
Quite boring ?! Cause there were nothing
for us to see! But got abit of shuai ge's
=] Lalalala after that went to the bowlin
area lorz. then that all le bahs?!
Peijuan and Aisyah damn cute la! They
thought that their wallet and hp was lost,
in the end leh?! It was inside their bag!
LOL LOL. lame;

-13th August-
Hmm, today Simin and I went to some
cell grp thingy? church de bahs. Wahs,
so MANY people. Quite scary?! They
were too friendly le !!! But okay la.
gotta afew shuai ge's over there too !
=]. Played the "blanket game", ehhs
quite fun ?! Then sang songs also lor.
okay bahs, stop here le !

wahahak

Weets ~
now at IT lesson again.
LOL this time i is "guang ming zheng da"
de blog. Our teacher dont care de lors.
very good hohs!! Wahaha very funnie
lor ! wahaha. kkae le, later go back
den blog again ~ BuuaIii !

=]

no more love love love le.
i have totally given up on
him le!!!*congrats to myself*
LOL , maybe not totally but
the feeling is almost gone le lor.
now the most important thing
is about my studies liao ~!!!
i wanna study and be a good girl.




ruay jie and me w0rs !!!
kawaii nehs ~ heehs



me and ruay jie again w0rs ~
kawaii nehs !!!! muackks.

taken on August 7th
- auggy bd wors -

=]]] !

What does your birth month reveal about you?

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality.Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisureand traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

LOLZZX~

dish ish how ii want moii hse tuu be liike when i gr0w oldd. niice marhhzx?!

weeetttts

today was the funniest day liao.
my school celebrated national day !
DAMN FUNNY! I laugh until
like 'kee siao'. Cannot stand it esp
the part when my form teacher
-indian dehs- came out to dance.
I think i laugh the loudest!! Kinda
paiseh la ?! =] This week we only
study 1 day and that is Thursday
cause on Fri, we gotta go to some
marina bay thing. Heard from
other people that is QUITE fun.
We shall see , Our 2 form teachers
aren't going with us. They said
that Ms J.Chua and Mr Low is comin'
with us, WTF, J.Chua that moron !!!
WAHAHAS, we sure bully her want lors
=] okay lar. nothin' much to blog le.
*muacks*

haiiish

[EDITED] hehs , edited this post
cause i just post it out of anger.

Well well, went out with my jie!
SHE IS SO CUTE LORS! She
wore pink shirt and skirt ~
same with me wors. Wahas
she so KAWAII ! I feel like
pinching her lors ~ !!!
Went to take neoz, turned
out quite ... not up to expectations
cause both of us damn long never
go take le ~ But nvm , lol
after that we went to walk walk
then went home liao lors.
*sianzz* kkae buuaii

anyway today is auggy bd.
- happy burfdae -

heehs

- SATURDAY -
WTF! Saw this REALLY cute guy
today at Tampines Mart !
He walked pass while i was sitting
down. He looked at me and smiled
LOL i smiled back too. of cause =]
eheheh. HE is CUTER then SLY &
DERRICK ! ;o I am gonna die of
BOREDNESS. I gotta nothing to do lah !!!
nobody is able to go out due to the
lunar 7th mnth thingy. wtf wtf wtf ,
sianzation. i really gotta find something
to kill my boredness! *hmmm*
LOL LOL LOL , ROFLMAO !
talked to Simin on the phone
today ! OMG i gonna *pengz* again
this guy called Ben likes her?!
Heard that he is quite _ _ _ _ _ !
*PENGZ* O.M.G ! WAHAHAS ,
please pardon me , i think i
am going crazy

- FRIDAY -
wei wei, im here to blog le ! hahas
nothing happened yesterday lah
but it was the lunar 7th mth.
most of the people went home
quite early. left him and some
of others bah ?! LOL , Eastview
had a friendly netball match with BSSS.
We lost by 1point/mark/goal bahs?
not really sure but it was very nice to
watch lors ! Saw him afew times too ~!!
Damn happy lah although
didn't say 'hi' to him.
- happy happy happy ! -
kk lorhs. nothing much to say le.
buaii =]

- THURSDAY -
damn it ! Tahir is back !!!
that MORON! , he made us
kicked soccer again! once more
BARE-FOOTED. The ground was
SOx4 MUDDY ! Cause it just rained,
he made us ran around the soccer
field. *pengz* my whole feet was
filled with MUD !!. It was so damn
disgusting ! *humphs* sickening
teacher , he still dare to scold peijuan
and I for not doing anything. He must
be BLIND, both of us were chasing
after the soccer ball and he still
have the cheeks to scold us. HOW DARE
HE ! *evil laughters* Simin got injured,
ehhs she twisted her feet , i suppose?
Don't know lahs , not my problem. So she
went to the exercise area to rest while
me and peijuan play lors. Damn funny la !
Well well. after the soccer game, Peijuan
and I had to pick up all the cones. bias !
LOL LOL ate nasi brani *is that correct?*
nice nice. YUMMY! DELICIOUS -MUACKS-

lol

yoyo, now at
i.t lab using comp dehs
lol, shud be having
a test but i sneak use lors
now abit "kia kia" cos
later teacher catch hoh
i mati liao le. hahaha lols kkae la
stop here le. BYE
come back and blog bah

anyway today is Alvin's bd !
- happy burfday -

lol

siianzation !
my baby didn't
come to school today !
she was havin' fever,
awww poor her. lols
nothin'else to blog liao
*peace* , ciao !!

sexy leg

LOLS look at those pictures!
it was taken by Simin and I ?!
Aren't we mad ? LOLSS !!!!
*sighs* lost a kor today .
i disowned him after thinking
so much. I really didn't wanna
do it but he forced me too ?
Nevermind .. its all over , i guess?
Today got back most of the papers
*SHOCKED* i pass all subjects !
all thanks to Peijuan ?! LOL!!!!

[EDITED] decided to take down the
pictures. they are like so violent =]

superstar !

went out with Peiying today,
went to see the superstars
at IMM =] we were mad !
from Tampines take taxi
to Jurong east .. !!!
Took many pictures and videos
of them wors!! =] lol, we were
mad lehs. we 'da bao' mac up
to the place and eat !! LOL

When the thing started, everybody
was pushing and pulling! I was so
innocent ! kenna pull by the hair,
stepped on the foot and pulled by
the bag ?! But for derrick ? its
all worth it! Hahaha everybody was
sweating like crazy ?! as if we
just came out from bathing?!
-imagine how much we sweat!!-
like i say, for derrick. its all worth it!!

After the superstar thingy. we took a
cab back to TM again ! crazy ? spent
$30++ just on the cab fare ! haha we
mus be mad over that derrick !!!!
LOLS kkay when the next time i upload
i would post derrick's photos !!!

- STAY TUNED !

WO SHUI DOU BU AI ! ZHI AI
DERRICK - WEIJIAN YI GE !!
WEIJIAN FC , SLOGAN ! +

happy burfdae.

i change my blogskin !
to the 1 sarah used for
her blog previously.
ehhs i hope she doesn't mind
wors. lol.

*sighs*
i think i have 'lao ren chi tai zheng'.
i keep forgeting things ! how to cure it?
issit becos too much stress le tt y ?!
haha , me dis type of people will
have stress de mahs?! i dun even care
about studies dehs. hais .. only care
about him ? i must be mad le. =[ !

that girl wanna teach me and simin
to *****. will i try mah? or for the sake
of him will i reject mahs? can sumbody
teach me wot to do?! i really need sumbody's
shoulder to cry on now ... *sighs*

anyway today is ruayngoen's bd
-HAPPY BIRTHDAY!-

sians.

diaoo, i really
hate my teacher leh
at first she said that
the chalet was on 8 and 9
of august, now she change to
19 and 20. WTF !!!
And she still dare to
complain so much ?! We
can't go wild wild wet
cos she say later we drown.
o.O ! so old le
still will drown mehs?!
crazy woman ..
aiyah she abit mad dehs.
chalet suppose
to be 3daes 2 nite
now she change to 2dae
1 nite. STUPIDD !!!
She say it is for safety
purposes. mad sia,
wad will happen to us dehs?!
kenna rob mehsx?! *SIGHS*

i really hate my life now,
why can't i get just
wad i wan ?! she took
away everything from me.
why must she be such a bitch
at first she was okay, until
she met that guy ! she became
ruthless!! i hate her esp when
she looks at me with tt eyes !
really feel like diggin out
her eyeballs !! she breaks her
promises ! bloody idiot ~ i
had enough of her le. *sighs*

HapPy~

nothing much happened today.
played soccer during P.E ,
BARE-FOOTED. Lotsa
sec 2 guys were there.
augustine, ebenzer and lots
were dhere. OMG so ps lahs.
I play until very clumsy
cos it was so MUDDY!! The
grass were stuck onto
my foot ... eeeww GROSS!

During Science lessons ,
he walked pass my class,
but he didn't see me =[ ~
How sad !!! Nvm next week
try to see him again bahhs.

Quarreled with the chi boy's.
They were so FCUKIN' irritating,
they spread rumours that are so
untrue ! i don't even like him ~
they have spread it for about
.... 7months ? since the
orientation camp till now !
can't they just believe that
i don't like him. i only like '**' !!!
not him ~

*Sighs* Went for I.T lessons today,
so boring. i wanted to sleep ~
Next week have I.T test ~
EEEEKKKS. i hate it ,
have to select this and that
plus the teacher is sooo freaking
FIERCE lors! Abit only scold le lehs.
damn irritating and she teach
very 'chim' dehs. cannot
understand wan.

Heehs after school went to find Ruay
at Tampines Mart. Chat with her alot
of things. About 'her' and 'him' ,
i was VERY happy when talking
about 'him'. Hahas now i am feeling
so HAPPY.

ANGRYY ~~~

** [[ .'+SO ANGRY+'. ]] **

boiling now, pls don't come and
pesther me ! Those sickening boys
are so boliao, eat finish gotta nth
to do come and di siao me. Really
idiot lahs.

in geog lesson, a funny thing happened
peijuan, ashaidil,aisyah, sudha and i
very funny sia. Keep talkin' about her =x
tml even worst, we are gonna notice even
more !! wahahahas. we are kinda sick in
dhe mind tat day. lols

after school, saw him awhile.
i wish i could see him a little longer
but he is always 'missing'. Soon after
he had left, i went to the bubble tea
shop and sat awhile. Saw auggy,
he was behavin' so weirdly ! at first
i tot he was possessed by ghost!
- 7th month is coming ! -
*Grins*, he kept saying 'hi' to us !
he wasn't like that before ?!?!
Hmm, i wonder what is he up to now !

Yep, afther all those crap.
i finally went home !!!
used my hp to msged people.
it was so boring that i started
to rmb those days that i had
during May ! Although it wasn't
a really lucky month for me cos
of that shuhui ! lols.

STFU!!

cb. i said its not me means its not ME.
fcuk it lar, no efficient proof den
stop telling everybody that it is me !
STFU, irritate me once more and
you will get it.. im capable of doing
bitchy things. wanna noe wad i would do?!
TRY me.

uUgly miie

me !!! nice ?

Open houSe

Went back to Gps today,
saw alot of people.
Augustine and Songhan went too !
Got this stupid guy KEEP showing off
his fcuking 6pecs? So erxin,
keep on wanna STRIP.
So PROUD. really hate that guy ~

unhappy `

so unhappy today.
managed to see him twice only~
Very sad when ruay msged me and
tell me about "him" , "her" and "her".
i hate them ! i wanna give him up le,
he is just making me more sad.. hais ..

103 gals

103 gals wit fatin. omg me and
peijuan looks like a ah lian seh ! lols ~

the guys with ms winnie tan.
sum were hiding wors ! haha.

sudha and aisyah. pretty seh !

the girls selling things.
that peijuan covering her face.
so pretty cover for wad!?